Yesterday one of my friends passed away aged 33. It is shocking news. Even today I can not believe that this has happened.
Yut lived his life to the fullest. He enjoyed life. He was a lovely, smart, friendly, caring, loving person.
It has shaken my life up to think about what life is about. Why are we here? What is the purpose?
One of my friends got me onto Louise Hay, "You can heal yourself" a few years back. I watched the movie and understood it, I bought the DVD of Wayne Dyer "Ambition to Meaning" and watched it. Both movies made me realise that I need to change my life. And I started. I changed for the better part but then I stopped on my journey. I didn't fall back into my old severely negative ways. But I didn't continue onto my journey of happiness. Parts of me still returned, like negativity (not as severe like before) and even parts of selfishness which I can see now looking back onto my life. Its not a good thing.
Nothing has rocked my life to the core like when I heard the horrific news last night. It has made me realise "what am I here for?".
I am currently watching Wayne Dyer's movie "Ambition to Meaning" again. Something inside of me is changing. I can feel it. I cant explain how I feel. Its something in my soul. I can not explain the feeling I have but I am feeling the shift in my life from living a life of Ambition to a life of Meaning.
I have clicked.
We live in this world where we need to show off to others about what we have. Lastest TV. Lastest Car. Latest Mobile. Latest Computer. All these brand name things that we feel makes us better than anyone else. "Because we are right all the time".
We can have all the best things in the world. But deep down are we happy in our emotional life? Do we have everything that we really need? Are we loved? Do we love others? Am I enjoying my life now? And just before we move on, can we tell ourselves "I have enjoyed my life. Thank you".
Today I start my transition to enjoy life. To the last minute. To enjoy what we all have. Im not talking about physical things like expensive cars, TV and stuff. But to enjoy everything that I have in my life. Family. And Friends. And letting my journey take me to a place where in the end I can tell myself that I have enjoyed my life. And Thank everything in the universe for providing me with a journey that I have enjoyed.
Yut has inspired me to change my life. So that The Journey is the Reward.
